Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Wishing

Do you ever come up with what you really wish you could say if only you had the guts? I do. I practice out these speeches and rehearse them over and over until they are perfect and every aspect is planned and every possible response has a rebuttal and then I file them away in my brain under "As if." SOMEDAY, I will actually give one of these speeches without fear of what the person I am speaking to will say or think when I am done. I will march up to them speak my peace and walk away, leaving a trail of wreckage that I don't care about cleaning up. I'm done cleaning up, let someone else do it. But for now? The worst I do is write them out and THINK about doing it. I'm so much of a chicken that I don't even have the guts to post them here! Oh well. maybe next time I'll have the guts.

7 comments:

Lindsay said...

haha amanda you are such a cutie! I miss you. You do have the guts to say things, you just don't want enemies =) You say things to me all the time, ha j/k. Love you girl, thanks for laying out, how's your sunburned? I hope not too bad, happy fourth if i don't see you before then! Come visit me at ashley's work =)

Amy said...

I do the same thing...but it's more like conversations in my head. This also applies in situations when I am not filled the most deepest of angers; sometimes it's just situations I think could have been funnier.

Oh, and honestly, it's probably best not to deliver our oh-so-eloquent speeches...they are usually regrettable and do more harm than good...for all parties.

PS-When do we get to be friends again?

Ashley said...

so who do you feel like chewing out?! When we getting together girl? I was thinking maybe tuesday of next week cuz i will be back in town!!! What do you say?!?! Since i miss you like crazy!

Caitlyn said...

Just say it! Let it all out! Also I just got back from vacation and we haven't hung out in a while. We should.

Amanda said...

I feel loved... Look at these four awesome girls who miss me!

Brittany said...

now i am very curious...

Lindsay said...

i miss you!! where have you been??